The Phoenix & the Goldfish

Once upon a time in Puerto Galera, Phoenix is beside her Goldfish, looking at the stars above. He leans closely and whispers sweetly, "Those stars are beautiful but I don't have to look up anymore since MY STAR is now besides me shining brightly." Haaayyyyzzzzz.... how can a Phoenix-Goldfish love story be very romantic as that!

But just like the sms message, "If a bird falls in love with a fish, where would they live? Who gets the fins and who loses the wings?" - Our love is not possible this time. In either way, I'll keep the zenith in my heart as it is - untouched! And if my Phoenix continues to fly within my zenith, I'll always welcome him without whines. And heal his broken wings with my love and cares. There's no vain hope nor it is a fervent wish. I call it - HAPPINESS in zillion ways (pardonez moi s'il vous plait)! And I will still hold him dearly in my heart. Whenever, wherever and however!

This is me, my love and my life!

Perfectly Imperfect

After a year of breaking up stage and 2.5 years of moving on stage, here I am again, confirming the melody of my heart. That it takes forever to forget someone. He's not just someone that I've known but SOMEBODY who made me SOMEBODY, too. He's the poetry that flowers my heart, moist my lips and grip my hands. But that is sometime ago. Am I back to the same grounds? Hopefully not, I just can't stop myself remembering those sweetest smiles that he put on my lips. I'm perfectly imperfect then.


Sigh! CPA reviews are just reminding me of those bittersweet memories. Perhaps, we really can't have the best of both world. But I choose to be the best in whatever is left with me.


And today is a wonder. We still have a communication - sharing the love, care & martyrdom. How can I ever resist his charms? Instead, it becomes my sweet addiction. Ugh! still on my perfectly imperfect self.

30 things of 30 year old Lady

{Inspired with the article of Sir Bong at Facebook}

1. I am 10% Sexy, 30% Gorgeous and 60 % Magnanimous.

2. I like people who call me “LEDZ” and I love those who call me “SEXY”. I appreciate their thoughts to make me feel good.

3. My wish list contains playing tennis, exploring Palawan, scuba diving in Maldives, and traveling Paris with the man I love

4. I hate people taking my things without my permission, even if she’s my bestfriend or my mother.

5. For me, TOM & JERRY is a cartoon for adult.

6. I am very strict & perfectionist but I am pursuing not to be one… odd as it sounds!

7. I love NGO works but seen few hypocrites also.

8. I am a night person.

9. I can sense if someone is badmouthing me. That’s my asset but also my liability.

10. I love pink, sky blue and yellow colors.

11. I adore my parents a lot, I will fight for them.

12. I’m the youngest but I’m not a spoiled brat.

13. I am a family person and a home body.

14. With my nephews and nieces, I ‘m their closest TITA. One factor is I’m closer to their generation and the other is …

15. I’m the poorest among the siblings. But I live a happy and contented life ...living life to the fullest!

16. I’m not very particular with clothes/fashion as long as it covers my body and soul, then, fine  but I can spend much for that “most delicious” cheese cake in town.

17. I’m a late bloomer. I just started spending for my overall wellness.

18. I’m a bibliophile but I don’t have any collection of anything.

19. I don’t care what people think of me . If I’ll defend myself, they will not believe it anyway.

20. My brother and I fought in April 2007 and I never spoke to him since then.

21. In 2006, I had 3 greatest pains in my life. Betrayal of trust of my closest pal, flunked CPA board exam the 2nd time and broke up with my first love.

22. Numbers 1104, 1436228 & 6228378 and letters NNSO , HKalo & TCA have “meanings” in the past. {Nonsense!}

23. Mabu & Mabuest don’t exist in any dictionary of any language but was meaningful as II Cor. 13

24. I broke up/dumped my exbf several times and I was dumped only once. Then, everything is over.

25. I still have constant communication with exbf and still express love & care for each other – AS FRIENDS! {Etchos!}

26. I am distant to people who always badmouth other people.

27. I’m a lousy liar, very lousy liar!

28. It’s better to know NOTHING than to know someone’s deepest secrets .

29. Generally, I’m a serious person but can be wacky and loud if mingling with ADIKTUS.

30. I am still lost in Timbuktu from my journey in Iraq.

God's Grace is yet to come

Piracy is everywhere. And I admit that I buy at least one copy every quarter. But I still love watching movies at the theater.

Today, I stayed late in office & I’m not able to catch up the earlier screening. So, I must wait for more than an hour for that last full show of MARLEY & ME.

With my Starbucks’ latte, I head to TIMEZONE to sing few songs. I was lucky to get 100% in videoke for one of my favorite songs – “Memory”.

When time is up to express the melody of my heart, I bought my movie ticket and sit at my favorite spot – farthest seat in the center, hehehe.

MARLEY & ME is a light drama but very meaningful. And that’s what life is really all about. We planned so much of our future but surprises are sweeter. Likewise, I can also take risks and I will work harder to keep whatever decision I made. I love it! I love life! And I fervently wish to be a home engineer too… just like my mom.

Well, I have faith that GOD’s GRACE is yet to come.